I miss Canada?
It’s not like I used to go there often. Maybe once or twice a year? But the option was always there for a weekend getaway to Toronto or a day trip to Niagara Falls. To be in a different country. To be forced to turn my cellphone off. It was nice. :-/ oh and ikea. 2-4 hours would get me a lot. 2hrs here will get me to Kentucky and 4 to Atlanta…not the same.

I’m about to be 27…

…and I’ve seen enough pain and suffering in my short lifetime to question anything and everything. I honestly think I’ve been completely jaded since I was at least 8. But I never really talk about it and I never really let it fully affect me at least not to where people would think I was a miserable person. Because life’s too short and I try my best not to be a miserable person despite what I might be going through. And im very grateful for my life and what i have because I also know that there are people that have it much worse. BUT every once in a while I break down.

Tonight I came home from work to my mom crying like someone had died or was very ill. But instead it was because her boyfriend of 20 YEARS told her that he has been cheating on her for a year with his old high school sweetheart who he reconnected with on Facebook. Oh AND he was just staying in our apartment a week ago on his way back to Rochester from Atlanta. I mean there is so much more shit that I could get in to on this once but ill refrain. Bottom line is he’s a fucking asshole and I’ve always known he was but I NEVER saw this one coming. And I have never felt so helpless in my life. There is nothing I hate more than my mom upset. Luckily we are both strong women who have been through a lot (and much worse) in our lives but holy fuck. Thank god we weren’t financially dependent on him.

If there is one thing someone could learn from this it would be that no one should EVER be dependent on someone else in their lives. This means you girls…before you go marrying the “man of your dreams” at way too young of an age you need to sit back and think to yourself. Am I a strong person? Can I be independent financially AND emotionally if something were to happen? And I don’t mean that this means every guy is going to cheat on you or divorce you BUT if you are mature enough and ready enough to get married then that should mean you’re also mature and ready enough to live a lone for the rest of your life. Respect yourself. And always remember YOU deserve the BEST and NOTHING LESS.