Off To Sleep.
To dream of things I don’t have.
Love love love love love
Every single one of my friends are in luuurrrrvvveee. Wtf are the chances of that? Oy.
most random post ever.
i love talking to and meeting new people.
it’s so refreshing.
i love learning about other people.
i love when music gives me chills, brings tears to my eyes, and puts me on cloud 9.
i love when people show passion.
I’ve been walking around ecstatic all day. I got up early and refreshed because I slept like a baby ( i think it’s because i was so happy). I spent the day with AMAZING friends shopping. I finally went to Lush and I’m in love, it’s going to be a dangerous habit but if their products actually work I’ll be super stoked.
I can’t wait for Christmas.
I want to bake.
and listen to music.
and doing some AWESOME (w)rapping.
I love the little parts of songs. It could be two words but sung in that right maybe unique way and I melt. Music is ridiculous.
How does one get to live RIGHT HERE!? And how much do you suppose something like this costs?
You’re suppose to take risks in life right?
How do you know what risk is the right one to take? What if every time you take a certain kind of risk, it blows up in your face?
I want someone to look at stars with.
I want someone to go on walks with…even when it’s freezing.
I want someone to go on road trips with.
Someone to go to movies and shows and museums with.
Someone to just sit at home with.
I want to know what its like to have the option to go on a date with someone.
I want someone to hold hands with.
Someone to MAKE me WANT to have only one job..or better yet NEED to have time for only one job.
Someone to take pictures with…go on adventures…explore with.
Someone who will give (wants to) me a fucking CHANCE to show them who I am. To prove I may just be what they have been looking for.
I want someone to go back to Paris with…or at least want to go to Paris with me. (and London and Venice and Rome and Verona etc, etc, etc.)
I want someone to show me a new out look on life…a different perspective…point of view.
Someone to knock the shyness right the fuck out of me.
I want spring time in winter.
I WANT to smile more.
I know that there is more to life than a relationship, trust me of all people I get that. But I’ve been living that life my WHOLE life. You eventually reach a point where that becomes the part of life that you have yet to have. So I want to live life.
Sometimes you have to let you guard down. Sometimes I wish I wasn’t so awkward. Sometimes I want to step back from a situation and scream “I’M SHY LETS GET PAST THIS!!!” because maybe that would break the ice.
I don’t get it…I can’t see or grasp or understand wtf is going on.
passive aggressive 101.
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Saw my good friend Jayce tonight. It was nice. But short. I miss a lot of my friends. I wish Marissa could have been with us for her birthday too. :-(
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ATTN GIRLS OF THE WORLD: If he was once a cheater he will ALWAYS be a cheater. My best friend just found out that her boy friend of 5+ years has been cheating on her since May. This is not the first time he has cheated on her but this is the worst. He was suppose to come home from the Army and move in with my friend in THEIR apartment. He came home and told her he was re enlisting. Which was 100% bullshit since he’s been lying since May and has been done with the military and instead hes just been living with this woman and is now engaged to her and back to living with her instead of working in Chicago like he claimed. I know I am no expect in the relationship department but WHY!? Why do girls let guys do this shit to them!? Why are we letting guys think they can get away with this shit! This guy is so fucking lucky he’s not still here cause he would probably dead. I did my part in cussing him out which felt GREAT if I do say so.
It’s sad cause I want a boyfriend so bad but then I see my friends go through this shit and I wonder if it’s all even worth it? I wonder if LOVE, true fucking LOVE even really still exists!!? I work with a woman who has been dating/married to her husband since they were in middle school, she is now like 54. That kind of shit doesn’t exist anymore. People of our generation will NEVER find that kind of love and I don’t know why. Why would we evolve into such unromantic people? Why are we so tempted!? I want to believe so badly that love still exists because I am so late in the game. I’ve had everything else, now all I really want is the cherry on top. But I’m terrified it will never exist for me. I hate to sound so cliche but…Does REAL love still esixt?!
